Chapter 9 - THE MAN WHO WANTED HIS WIFE BACK|
Marcus called me on Friday night.
I let it ring twice before answering.
“Laura, can we meet?”
“For what purpose?”
“To talk.”
“You've used that word to avoid making decisions for six months.”
“I know.”
The quiet admission surprised me.
We met the following afternoon at a small café near Central Park, far from the restaurants where we had once been photographed together.
Marcus arrived early. He looked older than he had a month before, and for once he did not seem concerned with how he appeared to other people.
He ordered coffee but barely touched it.
“I owe you an apology,” he said.
“You owe me several.”
“I know.”
“Then start with the truth.”
He stared into his cup.
“I met Eva when I was unhappy. That's not an excuse. I was frustrated with work, worried about taking over more responsibility from my grandfather, and convinced everyone expected me to be someone I wasn't.”
I listened.
“I liked how she made me feel,” he continued. “She admired me. She agreed with me. She made every decision seem exciting instead of difficult.”
“And I didn't?”
“You challenged me.”
“Because I knew you were capable of better.”
He nodded slowly.
“I know that now.”
I almost laughed.
“Marcus, I told you the truth for nine years. You preferred someone who told you what you wanted to hear.”
He looked down.
“I thought I was choosing a new life.”
“You were choosing to avoid the one you already had.”
The silence between us felt different from the silences we had shared during the final months of our marriage. This one contained no expectation that I would rescue him from discomfort.
Finally, he said, “I don't know what Eva wants from me anymore.”
“That is something you need to discover without using me as a landing place.”
His eyes lifted.
“Do you think there's any chance we could start over?”
The question hurt more than I expected.
Not because I wanted to return to him.
Because a part of me still remembered the man who had held my hand during my mother's funeral and driven through a snowstorm to bring me home.
“I don't know who you are anymore,” I said. “And I don't think you know either.”
He swallowed.
“I still love you.”
“Maybe you love the person I was when you believed I would always be waiting.”
He had no answer.
When we left the café, he asked whether I was going straight home.
“I have a meeting with the foundation's board.”
“Can I help?”
“No.”
The answer was not punishment.
It was a boundary.
As I walked away, I heard him call my name.
I did not turn around.
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For the first time, I understood that closure was not something another person handed you after explaining why they had hurt you.
Sometimes closure was the decision to stop waiting for an explanation that could make the hurt worthwhile.
